You have to read 'doubt' first for this to make sense or not.
I just walked through some doubts, in case you wondered. Like going through a desert, dry and dusty with no roadsigns. I think I am out of this desert of doubt for awhile. I have learned a lot. Boy, do I need it.
Step by step.....
Ok Tony...here goes a comment from that desert! I have watched God make provision for the past four years to establish a ministry. Recently, I watched as the enemy tried to steal it all away and make a counter attack and attempt to kill my wife. This ordeal is now five months long and weariness has been a close companion. Yes, even after all I have seen through signs and wonders, doubt, a tool to destroy, wants to invade. I noticed that doubt has never come to me when things are going wonderfully right! Ever noticed that? We have been told our enemy prowls about wanting to kill, steal, and destroy. We fight an unseen battle that requires much from us...yet at the same time requires nothing. Our trust in Him is the only thing that will get us through. I liked your words about walking forward...keeping going. While Lyn was in the hospital for the 48 days, and I was responsible for keeping the whole show going, I grew very weary. My faith was stretched and several times drug through the mud. At one point, to escape the calamity that surrounded me, I chose to watch "Cast Away". Not sure why I chose this, since the last time I saw it, it depressed me. But Tom Hanks' character made a statement that summed up our walk through the difficulties of life..."You just wake up and breathe one more day".
ReplyDeleteNow that Lyn is out of the hospital, she is resting at a friends house. My loneliness is not over and her healing is not complete. Benjamin's challenges have not gone away and my patience level is still not at 100%, but this morning I woke up thanked the Lord for another day and took a deep, deep breath. "He is the lifter of my head".
Chris Wynens
Benjamin's House, Inc.
Hi Tony!
ReplyDeleteGreat IM-talking with you the other night. Its exciting to be back in touch with an old HS classmate & friend, and great to hear & read about all God is using you to do for the Kingdom.
Great thoughts on faith & doubt. Really identified with, in several ways. "We walk by faith, and not by sight"- all the more true and relevant.
Keeping you in my prayers, bro!
God bless,
Rob Brooks